"Future" Plans

You know...

Life really hates it when you make plans. Just when I thought I had everything right, Life just ripped mine up in my face, handed me another blank sheet of paper titled, "Future," and said to me, "I'm sorry. Please try again."

The teaching assistantship in France was my Plan A. Grad school was going to be my Plan A for the following year. I should have made it my Plan B. I had extreme, high hopes of going to France. However, I did not foresee the family obstacles that I would be faced with this year. That's why I will no longer be going to France. *Sigh*...

As far as grad school goes, I'll have to wait until this fall to apply for entry into fall semester of 2012's cohort. If I really wanted to, I could have sent in a not-so-great application to two schools. But, I'd much rather send in a well-done, well-prepared, STRONG application.

Now that grad school isn't happening, I'm stuck at a fork in the road of life.
A. Find a job. Work a big boy job for a year. Pay off loans. Apply for grad school.
B. Stay in school. Work a student job. Accumulate more loans. Finish a minor. Apply for grad school.
I'd much, much rather do Option A. It's just that big boy job part that will be a bit difficult.

You know, I think it is in these times of adversity that we really discover who we are. We draw on our strengths to know how to decide what is best for us at this time. In doing so, we remind ourselves of who we really are and move forward in life. I'm at that point right now.

In some ways, I feel as though I've screwed up. But, no one's perfect. We all make mistakes. I need to keep reminding myself that...